Friday, December 28, 2007

Stop Thinking !!

In this very under-thought blog, I am going to brief you on:

"Why should you not think too much?"

This being a blog that is being written due to frustrations arising from most people who excessively think and waste my time, I am going to be brief and don't want to appear over-thought. How difficult is a yes or no ? ... Batao aur khatam karo ... itne sochte kyun ho ! There is nothing to lose, as you have come here with nothing and are going to go with nothing.

Now the consequences of over-thinking I believe you will need to contemplate on are as below. Feel free to add as comments or points you think are relevant as undeniable consequences of thinking:
  1. You could actually be wasting somebody's precious time, in not acting your part.
  2. You could take somebody's life when you are thinking - ex: Cause an accident, etc
  3. It could actually waste your time to execute a menial task.
  4. Thinking could drive people you love away from you, due to lack of action in expressing your love.
  5. Your thinking, beyond a stipulated amount of time will Distract and Annoy people. Imagine how such people affect you. So control !

So, I say 'Think as a Hobby' and 'Act as part of Your Nature' !

Tuesday, December 25, 2007

Lion Hearted !

The eyes of a dragon, in a breathe of fire.
Anger alone his power and dare.

Face up to him as his snare unveil,
At the burst of which we may swallow a whale.

This is life a dragon at heart,
His intention none; but to make us strong at heart.

He likes to slay us once in a while,
With no mercy is his own style.

Face away from him and be taken by his blow.
Face up to him inside yourself to dare and grow.

My words so thus are my expression of faith,
In a life that is a lion's respite and heaven's insight.

Arun Raj
Written on 30/06/2005

The Rain was drenched in Love ...

It was just another day at office, but not just another day in my lifetime. It rained today. In Delhi, drenching in rain is a rare experience annually, which you cannot afford to miss out on. And, I personally being a rain freak manage quite effectively to see that, I do enjoy every drop of it. It puts me into a state of happiness only equivalent to the state of being in love.

I was expecting rain to shower out pretty decently today. While in this state of love, I gave my sweetheart a call to see if she was available for a romantic evening: calling us to drench in it is showering. Being one of the first few dates out with her, it was always a challenge judging her responses. Also, as much as a confused and lazy soul like her, she tried to make up her mind on whether to come along or not. I always liked the challenge of getting her heavy-footed self to come out. While through this, I also felt she did bask in the attention too ... And then she concurs ... and now! I am elated!!

It had stopped raining for quite a while by now and I had just missed it, getting late out of office. But then! Being me is fun; I do not plan and do not work with a plan. And so, after getting her out I had a blank mind on what to do now. Lazing around and some golgappa’s later ... the rain gods submitted to my love of them. They broke out to splash the barren, now summer-heated roads to a well deserved drink of sweet rainfall. Again my lovely confused soul, did not want to drench ... much to my dissatisfaction, but what is love but sacrifice :P ...

I feel and I believe you will also concur; two of the best times during rains are - when it just starts to rain and when it just stops raining. We were not able to judge when it was going to rain, but when it stopped we were ready to get out and feel the cool after the rain. I got out, closed my eyes, spread my hands out and felt the caress of the fresh cool breeze, which drifted me off to the pearly gate's of cloud nine. Peace ...

My lovely confused soul was now hungry and what better time to have a romantic single plate 1-course meal. Under the clearing twilight sky, this weather could not get better. We found a restaurant that had an outside sitting and with the weather this enchanting, I just hoped this moment just stopped and freeze in time.

My lovely confused soul's most enticing feature was her deep lovely eyes, which could entice any uninterested common soul into enchanted fantasies. I struggled to keep my now enchanted heart to sway under her gaze. We sat down then to have a dinner sprinkled with an unspoken sense of enchantment by the night, rain and breeze. They say sharing food increases the love you have for each other, may be they were right.

Bidding adieu to her was difficult but an almost inevitable conclusion to this most fairy tale like experience. The night left me with a falooda of romantic, enchanting and deeply moving emotions that I cherish to this day. I just wish I could recreate this moment of love, rain and peace again, but then the best things in life sometimes are only one time experiences.

... A day in June 2007, Noida

Still in love with that moment ...

Friday, December 14, 2007

Hunger - Emotionally !!


Hunger is a funny emotion. It can be:
  1. A sign of total misery, or
  2. Forced Hunger or A sign to keep fighting sometimes to complete objectives to fulfill the need for food - Work in short , or
  3. A materialistic wanting of the human body.


Now taking different scenarios into consideration:

Sign of total Misery

When you haven’t had anything proper for ages and start getting completely under-nourished, while also not having the resources to get a 3 time good meal.

The duration of hunger now becomes an eternal period of unrest, where you make yourself feel it is as a routine nuisance of the restless mind.

Forced Hunger or When you are fighting to complete objectives

Tiring from work we try to fix focus on work with a grumbling stomach. But then since you missed your breakfast for work, this was a foreseen unavoidable consequence.

Then focus on the sumptuous meal and visualize it as a treasure, preferably a picture from the pages of a cook book ... Mmmmmmmmm ... 

Materialistic wanting of the human body

This is an important scenario to be understood, 'coz they say the spirit does not get hungry ... The body just needs enough energy to sustain a search our soul has undertaken. This need for energy now our body has come to accept routinely, through intake of FOOD. So now, hunger can also be perceived as an ungratified want.

This type of hunger they say can also be satisfied by eating thin air … literally ... some yogis and ‘enlightened souls’, seemed to have done it. This, as hearsay goes, is a specialized capability of training of the mind and body, to adjust with available nourishment with maximum intake utilization. It still is not about not eating or eating thin air ;)

What you should KNOW?!

Type 1: You surely won't be able to do much about this but become a good manager. Knowledge of what you actually do get to eat and then managing it efficiently to reach an optimum utilization to intake ratio .Get smart... dire situations need planned desperate measures.

Type 2: Feels like it makes you stronger, but creates medical problems and incidentally affects your work & life, so think before you do this. The work would be the one you were trying to stay hungry and complete. So whatever does happen, you shouldn't miss any of the three meals.

Type 3: Spirituality is the subtle management of utilization to intake ratio, when we are discussing in terms of hunger. When regular intake utilization is 50-60% requiring more intake to reach necessary levels, this case of hunger would be at intake utilization of 90 to 95% .This is achieved by a discipline - following tasks and patterns of diet which are best for the body.


Hunger is only a state of mind. Suppress it, but follow a good routine by meticulously evaluating your utilization to intake ratio. This can lead to multiple benefits:

  • Effective nourishment
  • Save food and help a soul suffering Type 1 Hunger soul
  • Help and direct others to optimize utilization to intake ratios, consequentially saving food for distribution to needy or else cost savings
So, have you felt hungry today!!

This was wrote at a time when I had a whole week to go before I get my next salary, had only 100 bucks left for the week and had a heavy duty self-esteem and ego. The ego said fight, so I stayed hungry, escaping into work, where I searched for satisfaction. So, effectively becoming a hungry Soul of Type I, II & III.

Also, please ignore the Sarcasm inbuilt some statements.

Wednesday, December 5, 2007

Anything is POSSIBLE :)

Anything is POSSIBLE :) by just changing the way you look at it ... As an OPPORTUNITY or JUST ANOTHER CHORE !!

Many a times opportunities fall into your involuntarily open arms, that you reluctantly accept. Unmindful of gains you walk the fire and bear a grudge.

The grudge drives you to do your best at something you have been forced with ... but then you realize it was really too simple to have borne a grudge for !!

And now you think ... Anything is POSSIBLE :)

Tuesday, November 6, 2007

Once in a lifetime experience !!

If life could be more unpredictable then ... I'm in for the same. The fear of unknowing is an adrenalin rush that drives me to great heights of pleasure. ( I guess that is why planning is something I do not do ;) ) ... This was one such experience, with some great friends of mine.

7.30 pm to 11.40 pm - 18th October 2007

Through to a sleepless night ... waiting for daybreak :)

11.40 pm to 6.30 am- 19th October 2007

It was once in a lifetime event for all of us.

And im really glad that all of us met. From miles away and cultures apart, we met as friends on a common platform - LIFE. Now we seek our paths with blessings a lot and many a sweet memories to cherish.

LOVE YA ALL .. !! :) - Siddharth, Mohit, Rupa, MunMun, Ravish, George, Bobin, Mridula, Ankit ...

Friday, October 26, 2007

कर ज़िंदगी मे ऐसे कुछ तू, के रह जाए दंग हर कोई |

कर ज़िंदगी मे एस कुछ तू
के रह जाए दंग हर कोई

अब हटा वह हर कोई
जो सामने तेरे आए या टोक

रुकते है बस वह जो है
ज़िंदगी से थके हरे हुए

इस ज़माने कि तोह अब
आंखें भी तू, जुर्रत भी तू

अब कर ज़िंदगी मे ऐसे कुछ तू
के रह जाए दंग हर कोई

By Arun Raj

Tuesday, September 25, 2007

Where is home ?

As a simple belief, I say "Home is where you heart is or where your family is!" :D

Wednesday, September 19, 2007

Back Office Blunders

The globalization parade always raised one question in my limited thought process – Is this what we learn a 4 year Bachelor of technology for and does it depict what we are really capable of? With globalization, our focus dissipated to only satisfying the requirements of a world which seeks only to improve its own comfort and efficiency, than looking at the issues at hand in our nation.

Planning for long-term reliable sources of income rather than immediate gratification was what made nomads into civilizations. From that perspective then, I question how far-flung are our current plans and planning of our future sources of incomes are? When 65% of our populace earning direct or indirect income from varied sources of agriculture activities, we still consider feeding electricity to the rest 35% now is of top priority. The 123 Nuclear Deal with the US has been over-shadowed by the KIA (Knowledge Initiative for Agriculture education) initiative signed by our honourable PM with the US Premier. The deal fails to state any direct relation or notification of our national agrarian crisis. A week ago, I myself not aware of this sign off felt rather imperceptive, as most of the media focus was laid on the 123 Deal only.

When they are shifting their low-skill activities to our nation which has one of the richest levels of intellectual capability in the world, we are just lying down and taking it. If they stand to gain with high cost non-core activities being out-sourced to low-cost labor entities like our nation, we again stand lose such skills developed to low-value jobs. Not just that the blatant under-estimation of our latent skill and capability disgusts me, but also beyond just underutilization we are also effectively underpaid for our skill.

Trends are never sustainable and the markets have proven it many a time. Knee-jerk reactions to trends like BPOs, GM seeds, etc, without studying impact on long term effects and consequences was bound to recoil in its path with a painful force. We are still ignorant of the pain, as we are high on the ecstasy of stock market growth and money coming into the system. Our government now is largely ignorant of the adverse consequences evident from short-sighted and immediate-gratification policy making.

Now, with adaptation of certain shallow traditions over-shadowing our years of tradition and culture, we are not able to respect and admire the richness rooted in our past. Blindly accepting a culture of a civilization only hundreds of years old, we voluntarily under-state our centuries old culture. Our misguided youth, in pursuit of relatively perceived glitz and glamour have been made insensitive of the fact that real growth will only reflect with the growth of nation as a whole. We need to set national goals that are both achievable and reasonable, based on studied conclusions with due respect to our natural ecology.

I call you to action my friends. Its do or die!

Tuesday, July 17, 2007

Women & Men Of Honor

I shed a tear for a history past,
For friends and lovers I made & lost.

A great many I hear are in seats of honor,
A great many I hear are struggling, but fights.

For the ones in honor, may have had a lucky spite,
The struggling few grows in time, in strength & vigor.

I let out a sigh for the moments not too bright,
That we all spend with great many struggles inside.

But now I believe, we have grown inside,
As Women & Men with great skill and might.

A voice inside, now prays for strength today,
For the friends I made and my own humble soul.

" Dedicated to completion of 1 year working with a great set of people ..
Also dedicated to friends from college and my lifetime in college. "

Wednesday, July 4, 2007

Albert - To have loved is better than never to have at all !

This is one person I found in my humble lifetime that likes to take a hit for many an avoidable shots that life puts to him and takes it with elan. End of the day I have to answer his one question : " Why am I like this ?", to which I answer : "I told you so, but you still are the same."

He is an awesome manager instinctively, which he would not acknowledge. Something natural about him in making work done by people without them knowing they have done it, is something effective management is all about, and dear Albert, you are exceptional at this. This guy makes the system around him work towards his goals with the world unaware of it. And yet today he wastes his time lazing around doing an insignificant software job, which is inundating his capabilities as a great manager.

He is been to me more than a friend who was there in some of the most difficult moments of my life till today. As a brother and a friend he has been valuable person to many a person's life he is related to. Giving heart for thorns is an offering most average people find hard to live with, but here is a soul that lives and breathes this attitude.

This is not a testimonial but a ode to one of my Angel's, that I in my every breathe cherish to have known and befriended.

" Love is a mis-interpreted word in today's world and some some souls still follow the true old meaning."

Sunday, June 3, 2007

I am Flying home in an Air Deccan !!

That heading sure does sound freaky at first, but it settles in around 10 minutes after you get in. I really don't want to make a statement saying it is a BAD flight, but make clear that I was expecting something worse. The only things that did trouble me, or in a way excited me, was of the possibility that, this whole flight would just stall in mid-air and crash. But, that does not happen all that too often right !

But then to my delightful surprise it was not the flight that was the adventure it was more of the journey to catch the flight and the boarding that was the FUN :) here goes ...

Saturday 2nd May 2007 -

I prepared my luggage, cleaned up my room and was waiting for Neha to come. She does come but with a sweet little lady her niece Navya. When they left it was time for me to track Sid out, who is expected to drop me at Delhi Airport. The adventure begins at 42 deg C, having me to walk 1 Km to the railway station where Sid would pick me up. Sid drops his jaws seeing my baggage that I'm carrying It has to be carried on his 6-year old Honda Scooter. "If it was a little more bigger we would have required a truck to carry it !" he said, just jokingly.

Now starts the dash for the quickest crossing from one end of Delhi to the next end to reach the Airport at Palam. 45 Minutes was real fast and I don't think we saw a speed below 60Kmph, which on Delhi roads & traffic is sometimes called speeding.

We reached the airport a little bit too early as check-in does not begin 2 hours prior. Sid left and I was left hoping for that perfect travel companion, as if there was nothing else left to do. And yes, there was nothing left to do ! Other than watch those lovely god's creations called Delhi girls, while they mercilessly swayed my mind as each one passes my flirty eyes, reveling at the treat, I was entirely jobless.

The heat had just begun to rise as the air-conditioning system in the airport lounge seemed to be on a strike of sorts. I wondered if it may be because they were not supplied proper power supply. Now, combined with the notorious history of Delhi airport's & Indian airline carriers to delay flights, people just had to raise their flab against this inconvenience.

Just in time, SpiceJet had to be the bait this time around. Their flight at 7pm was delayed by 2hrs and the present time being 5.30pm, it was just too long a time to wait. So, the passengers had fun by firing the sweet bum's of the airport manager and the AC in-charge. Intriguingly, as the AC in-charge arrived cool air starts flowing, as though some divine intervnetion had taken place.

Just when I thought the fun was over !! Then again something comes up ! The call for my flight just came in, and even before I realised there was a call for boarding flight DN621 there seems to have been a funnel like queue already formed. This funnel converged into a one-single-person-fitting checking counter, where things seemed to happen at a snail-pace compared to the growth of the queue size.

The flight ground staff had a difficult time supporting the final security-check process. One lady manning the security check, reached her peak of patience and cracked, while slightly nudging a passenger with a hoarse tone of voice. She now had to face the wrath of the passenger. As the passenger and the lady were enjoying the bout together, somehow a definable queue started growing behind. Oh, how nice are these people now !!

Time to board the plane after my checking is over. Its been 5 years since I boarded a plane, and even now the old notion of the plane stalling in mid-air and just dropping to the ground hit me. The exciting part about take off for me, always was the G-force that you feel at the point where the wheels just launch off the runway. It gives me a kick of adventure of sorts and thoughts like 'Can I jump of this plane with a parachute' or 'Could I be the one that brings down the hijackers' or ... lots of crazy things hit me.

The best part was when I got out the flight with the one statement shouting out loud to the Chennai skies - "Yo Chennai .. the sweet smell of the south .. mmmmmmmmmmmm". Its more of a nostalgic and mesmerising effect that I start hallucinating to the effect of feeling a smell of the south.

I place my first call to my angel who would pick me up - Emy. I have known Emy for 5 years and she has become one of the best of friends ( part of my list of Angels ) that I have known in my humble lifetime. Emy and Binny were to receive me at Chennai and I am expected to spend the next one day with them at their place, before I catch my train to HOME.

I'm grateful to my GOD, my parents, my friends and all the other people mentioned here (of whose names I do not know ) for this awesome experience. This adventure journey has been an experience that was once in a lifetime and rare.

" Life is beautiful, Its just the way you perceive it ! "

Saturday, May 19, 2007

Saturday 6th Nov 2006 - A Fun Experience with Myself :)

First of all on saturday morning my roomie went out with his gurl to do mushy mushy stuff in sum park. So ,I was alone and had no particular plan. So LETS GO ... Me and Myself went out happily to a mall nearby called CENTRE STAGE MALL. So reached there started roamin around for while.. went to the multiplex there .. BUT no movie that i wanted to see, in a long while until 2 or 3pm ..

So finally at around 1.15 went to a Cookie shop and fergot 400rs and walked away .. Now travellin in a cycle rikshaw almost 2 kms away.. ... Arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhh .. I fergot 400 rs .... OF MY HARD EARNED MONEY ... .. Go rikshaw walle bhai .. LETS GO .. He also said LETS GO .. .. We are now on a rush trip back to the mall, the traffic stopping us and the rash driving proving as estranged obstacles .. We were cool .. we flew past all that ... And we reached the surrounding of the mall , the policewalla does not allow us to enter the vicinity of the mall .... we try a different route .. and bounced back by 3 policewallas .. we now finally escape and reach the mall back ...

The Cookie shop guys now search their whole register .. but no chance its not in there .. Tried to argue with them for a while but no use .. MY 400rs gone .. COOOOOOOOOOOLLLLLL... Now wht do i do ????? I left and went back tto my rickshaw walla and him to take me to another mall ..

I thanked the rikshaw walla and you knw wht ..??? he actually caught me and adviced me ... Tht was one great advice .. I was happy after that and planned to fix up my memory issue .. Sad but ...recovering from the loss .. I now end up in the next mall .. I thought a fine movie would help me get outof it ... but no yaar .. that does not work .. Did not get the movie i wanted .. it was scheduled for 8.15 and I missed the present show by 15-20 minutes .. Hmmm.... wht do i do now ..Mohit is not coming bck till 5-6 pm..

So I go Barnie's Coffee .. found a nice comfy sofa and sat there for the next 6 HOURS .. I finally even got a free drink after socializing with the gang there .. That was after spendin almost 150rs there The 6 hours I sat there ... I got a heavy flow of ideas for the program that i was expected to handle .. I have to present my Engagement plan on Wednesday .. 2 days from now .. I need to start working on it .. And That was saturday .. very eventful ..

Ohh I dint tell u .. i wentt to the mall b'coz the previous day i fergot sumtin at another shop .. some stuff that i bought, with the security there ... and came coolly back and later realising i had fergotten it .. And I ferget again ... That was one of my saturday's in NOIDA ... ;)

Friday, May 18, 2007

" Leaving Port to Destined Docks "

Sails of splendor, we proudly spread;
On our rafts or yachts of life.

Some trails we followed, among many,
Are etched in dark on our sails in vivid.

The time, it took, to built the yachts,
And builders involved, many now forlorn.

But the path now defined, we flow;
Flow with the fickle draft .

Fresh and lucid some memories now,
That stir our minds, to whirls of emotions;

Then we say in resigning valor,
" Those where lovely times ... ".

And now the steer ever so bound,
In search of the destined honor;

Let's cross our hearts and face the waves,
And steer this yacht to its destined docks.

Very Simply LOST !!

Treading paths new and old,
I found many truths untold to me.

Paths there were, I could not take
With assured bright ,but dim lit.

People shared many ways they thought right;
And I took many I thought right.

I felt, I lost, myself in a foggy night,
But then that was only that one night.

The morning broke and a shady spite
Which few hoped would bring new hope; but never shined.

It still is a journey for a sweet truth,
Eclipsed but only by a focus blur; I believe.

I tread now with first hope ,to find first
A pair of spectacles, to fix my sight, then a torch to find the final bright.

... On a Journey ! ...

Arun Raj

My Neural Hypothesis for Intuition

If you have an understanding of the neural processes in your brain .. i believe intuition is easier to understand. The brain is actually a Storage Box of information and has been trained with the capability of linking and processing multiple inputs to achieve or reach to conclusions.
We know that all people perceive different events differently. The reason, because the millions of neurons interconnect and process the same information with different inputs .. hence the different outputs. Leading to varied thought processes.

Now coming to intuition my theory is as follows :I think it is more of a probablity science. The people who say they have intuition are more or less very capable at probablity, subconciously. But to compare an established mathematician and a person with intuition does not make sense.
If any of us would have followed the Numbers series on AXN, you would know the capability of mathematics in predicting situations.

So,then the conclusion of my hypothesis is that : Intuition is more of a subconcious mind's probablity skill than anything else. Not a miracle or of any other external influencers.

Emergence of the 'GOD' - A hypothesis ! - Part 1 - Fear of loss of control

The story begins long ago when man was not of the same physical shape and of a civilised nature, when the 'Survival Instinct' was his only way of reasoning. He was clearly not the most powerful creature around. He had to find a way to protect himself and guard himself against the more powerful creatures around him.

While every creature around him found a way to survive ,either by camouflaging itself or with some physical capability to protect itself ,Man had none. Neither did he have a skin that could blend into the environment, nor did he have the legs to run fast, and also did not hv the teeth to bite into raw flesh. His only resort was to use the skill and instinct he evolved called - Reasoning.

Reasoning led him to understanding the nature of fire and also on deciding the best type of food for his survival. He then reached a point where his reasoning told him that working in teams can be more effective than alone. Understanding the synergy of working in groups he hunted in groups and stayed together for then he could face the stronger creatures with more might and lesser energy.

The new synergy of achieving more in groups and communicating experiences made him reason his 'existence'. They now tried to understand the laws of nature, fire, thunder, the sun, etc. Now , some of the older, louder or smarter creatures took control of the growth of this thought processes for their own benefits or other reasons and manipulated the mindsets. Here comes the rise of the 'GOD' concept. These proponents of the 'GOD' concept developed and manipulated the fear of this unknown power and explained each natural consequence with repect to 'GOD' or a greater power.

Fear of something more powerful than them now starts to set in to the lower souls minds.

End of Part 1.